29 Oct Shadows of Sexuality

Sexuality is sacred. This has been distorted from our ancient lineage of domination, control and manipulation. The ego used this portal to hide secrets, lies and deceptions. We became addicted to the shadows of sexuality. This became like a virus without a cure, unmanageable, spreading like wild fire.

How can we help ourselves, our future generations and children, to create a safe and sacred space for sexuality? This will take a lot of understanding, openness, meaningful conversations in schools and institutions, shifting our collective beliefs and opening our body, mind and spirit from a holistic point of view.

Every unique soul has incarnated here to experience and resolve unconscious negative beliefs and karma that we have been encoded with. When we develop and heighten our intuition, we become conscious and universally aligned to the mind of the Source of all that is. We realize that in order to create a new beginning, a clean slate, we have to acknowledge where we went wrong.

What are the unconscious thoughts and beliefs that are imprinted in our collective? The unconscious has to be conscious with Light and with the assistance of the Masters of Light. Without these guardians, we can not rise up, as the virus has been attacking our collective universal mind. In order to gain power, we need to find out how we were penetrated by the shadows of this virus in regards to our sexuality. How the spirit of darkness has given others shame, guilt, insecurity and fear, and clearing these entities that are feeding our systems when we are holding these lower vibrational frequencies.

What are some of the lower frequencies of emotions that affect those who have experienced sexual abuse?

Shame and guilt- we are afraid of the actions and addictions that we have carried over during the experiences of sexual abuse. We hide this within us, we are afraid of the judgements from others. We do not know how to feel good about sex. We feel guilty if we take pleasure because we were manipulated into thinking that this act should not be pleasurable, it is a sin according to the religious institution that we followed. Some of us were brought up to be ashamed of our bodies. We were criticized if we were developing body parts that would make us look too sexy. As a daughter of a strict Catholic background, my mother was very strict and would not allow us to be sexual in any way. Our religion did not allow sex before marriage, and that also gave us more guilt if we were actively having sex. The act became full of guilt from so many backgrounds. You are damned if you are having pleasure.

You do not trust yourself or others. The moment I became intimate with another person, I found ways of blaming or running away from the person. It is like unconsciously, I resorted to this act. Fear of commitment and intimacy. I learned not to trust my intuition. I was raped many times because I lost the sense of knowing or discernment about my choices of men. I attracted others who had intentions of sexually using me. I became a target, it felt like being a magnet for predators because of the lower frequency that I was emitting. This magnetized others in this vibration. As I became more aware, I was able to have better discernment and know the difference. I developed my insights and intuition. I started trusting myself and others.