07 Feb Your name written in the sand

Feb 6, 2023 

Today as I closed our Crystal Vibes shop, I was sitting in the floor with two beautiful souls who had come to visit me. I looked at the front where Alexa, my old time Amethyst cathedral is placed, two young ladies were staring at her closely and I said to them, “her name is Alexa, she came to me on May 13, 2015 wow! It just dawned on me that it was like 8 yrs ago. That was a magical day, I bought her for just only $700 and the owner of the shop Amethyst Creations in West 4^th St Brian, lend me a hand to drive and carry the cathedral all the way to my home in Burnaby. 

I remembered vividly that day, my friend Alona from Kelowna was in town and we decided to go to his shop. I saw Alexa in the far corner of the shop. I asked Brian, “how come you are hiding this beauty?” He said to me, “that is for consignment, the owner closed his yoga center and I can give that to you for $700.” I made a joke saying, “wow! that money can be a trip to Mexico!” But I cannot resist Alexa, I said yes if you can help me carry her home. Brian agreed and drove us in his car. While he was driving, I received a phone call within 20 minutes of sitting inside the car. It was someone who is dear to my heart and donated $1000 towards my publishing. Brian and Alona both looked at me and asked, “how in the world did you do that?” It was magic! Alexa created this event in my life and I will never forget it. 

Today is another one of those magical days. The two ladies both joined us with Bubbles the fairy my candle holder in the middle of our sacred circle. I started to smudge all of us, brought the oracle card of Alana Fairchild, The White Light and gave each one a card. I stood up and took some Angelites crystals and hand them to each one of us. There were 5 of us in the circle. As we started talking, they confided to us that their beloved passed away 10 days ago. I felt that the spirit was with us. I asked, “did he die through suicide?” They said, “yes and how did you know?” I confided to them about Theo, my son who also died 5 yrs ago. I started channeling the messages from their beloved and the sister was crying. We closed our séance and I closed our shop. 

When I got home, I still have to do a healing session. I took a shower and proceeded with the Akashic Records reading. It took me awhile and there were a lot of downloads. I then finished and started talking to my boyfriend Milan. I ended up reminiscing my stay in the Philippine in July 2019. I saw this picture of Theo’s name written in the fine white sand beach in Caramoan, Philippines. 

I stopped and said to Milan that I am going to put this picture in my book for Theo. Here is the name of my son, it became a tradition to me every time I am around a body of water. I write his name in the sand. I send this love to him like telling him how much I love him. Through this ritual I develop a powerful stance of connection to his spirit. It symbolizes to me that we are eternal, in the vast ocean and what I write, echoes in the waves of the ocean and brings this deep love to the eternal waters in the universe. I am a lover of Theo’s soul. 

I feel tonight that I want to share this story of writing Theo’s name in the sand. The story of sorrows that these two ladies brought tears in my heart. I feel the urgency of finishing this book. I feel the need to be a beacon of Light to others who are going through the darkness nights of the souls. I cannot procrastinate anymore. I have no excuses. I asked God’s divine intervention that I can refocus and be divinely guided to do what is necessary to deliver the darkest night of my soul. It is here with you. May you be guided by these words to lean to your higher power, that Light that penetrate your soul. It is here in your heart. Listen, be still and know that everything has its purpose. You might not know right now, it might come to you in the few years to come, why your loved one has to go? Those unanswered questions, will soon find its voice..this silence will help you realign your life, your mission and why things happened? There is no answer that I can give you, only you know. It can take time, to heal your wounds but the only time is what we have now. Today, practice compassion for yourself. Be angry if you want, deny if you can, you can be what you want to be. This time, only this time be with your darkness. Light up a candle, be with the spirit of your loved one. It is time to be one. 

Tonight as I close this chapter, I dedicate the days to come in February as the days of love. To love my darkness with complete surrender. That I am divinely guided to be a healing light for those who are weeping, that I may be a channel for the messages of their loved ones, and to be at peace with what I lost. To know that Theo is eternal, at peace and leading me to my true purpose. Tonight I pray for your soul, you who is reading this chapter can rest in your sleep and know that your loved one is with you. In your dreams, in your waking hours, in your past, present and future timelines. Because you are a multidimensional being of Light and you are now remembering who you truly are. Be at peace.