This was written on June 25, 2004 while I was practicing Catholic, I am now editing this book “Deepest Darkest Wounds of my Soul” and I want to share this chapter to all of you. The church is calling me back to share my soul healing and it is such an honor to be invited. Thank you God for this miracle in my life.

Treasures in the darkness:

“And I will give you treasures hidden in the darkness-secret riches. I will do this so you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, the one who calls you by name.” Isaiah 45:3

What are the treasures hidden in the darkness? These are the pain, difficulties and trials that we go through in our lives. While we are going through the motions we don’t know that they will turn out to be gifts until God reveals to us the purpose of that experience.

Things happen for a reason and I believe God is always here with us in the midst of our tribulations. When I had abortion surely God was weeping and sobbing in the deepest cries of my heart. God had heard my wailing and had seen my broken heart. Through this pain I became very aware of others pain

I can not turn my back on someone who is in pain and I am always here to reach out and listen. “I have been there and God helped me through it!” Can you imagine this world of darkness if someone can not see the Light? Where would that person be? Will he take his own life out of desperation? Would he be wallowing in pity and self -torture? These questions are some of the things that someone in the dark would be contemplating. I had a lot of dark nights of the soul and I was longing for answers but felt God was not there.

He was too far to hear me. Yet my soul is quenching in thirst for thy love, “where are you in the middle of this despair?” I ask God. When you are in the middle of this despair you do not hear God’s words, only when I surrender that that I slowly hear God’s voice again.

The treasures are in my heart, they can never be bought by money. They are stored in the most precious gift of God to me, my little heart. When I am going through some darkness I just have to remind myself that treasures are hidden in the darkness.

Present reflection:

As I reflect in this writing, it dawn on me that this darkness is where my son Theo was, when he crossed the street on Nov 22, 2017. He was in a state of desperation and darkness. He was unable to heal his broken heart and mind. I asked God, “ how come I was able to heal my pain? How come Theo was not able to do this? The answer that I received was that, we all have different soul’s journeys. Sometimes the soul is ready to move on and we us human beings do not understand this until we are in the spirit.

We are being given a life review where we can see all the things that we have done, said and thought of. You will be responsible for all your actions. In that moment of recollection, you are able to receive the grace and mercy of the Divine. You then, will enter a new contract of your soul. Like a book of your life, you will receive grace to start a new. In what dimension, or another timeline, you are a free spirit given freedom and freewill by our Creator. You will co-create and always co-creating in the spiritual world. This is the field of oneness with all that is. As you traverse this soul’s journey, you will return home to your soul together with all of your loved ones and the rest of the collective souls who are infinitesimal. This is the home of the angels, Light, and the Masters.