05 Jul Personal Transformation in Planetary Retrogrades

Planets have gravitational effects in our psyche, perceptions, behaviour, emotional body and energy. Everything is energy. We are all affected in our collective consciousness and unconscious when there are major theme or movements in the sky. As above so below.

What does it means for me personally when 5 major planets like Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Pluto and Neptune are in retrograde within this month of July? Retrograde is about looking backwards, going inward, inner work, karmic themes, more on reconsiderations of these planets functions and how it affects your incarnation.

If you are not aware of the planets symbolical meaning you need to check on them as they are a part of our awakening. They are leading us to be awaken of issues that are hidden, our shadows and how we can truly ascend what these planets are asking us to be aware of. To give you a simpler understanding of their functions: Mars is about action, fire and  energy. Jupiter is about beliefs, expansion and abundance. Saturn is about karma, your life’s purpose and mark’s the major ages in human’s time. Pluto is about transformation, death and rebirth and sexuality. Neptune is about spirituality, water and dreams.

This month of July is crucial for all of us to take it slow, rethink how we are existing and have time for yourself. Taking inventory and truly listening to what is happening in your life. What are your desires, losses and happiness. Taking time in nature to ground your monkey mind. We become out of sorts when these energies are all changing. Our regular rhythm is changing tempo, we can get confused. You will find that things that used to matter before does not matter now. Time to let go of old ways of thinking, perceiving and judging. Judgements about others and your own self. There is a lot of dying to oneself, shedding old skins like the reptilians. We need to let go of attachments and be grounded. A lot of emotional upheavals, mental anguish and wild dreams. These can lead a person to a dark space that is why we need awareness of what this means to us. How we can help ourselves to navigate through all of this vibrations?

I had a vivid dream, in the dream I saw myself in the bridge of my divorce last 18 yrs ago. I was so lost like a part of me died within me. I woke up and know that I needed to contemplate. These two months have not been easy for me as a nurse. Taking care of my residents who are dying. As a result I was sick in bed for one week with flu. For me I take everything with meaning, things happen for a reason. Why now after all these yrs of being healthy, I questioned myself? I looked at my past trauma of losing Theo, I had a break from work for 3 months and that was not enough. I went back to work crying everyday. I knew my emotional state is not at peace. There is such a depth of losing once child. My lungs were talking to me, I was congested, I was grieving. My body wants me to take a break. To rest. I was wondering about that. I realized I did not want to take a break because I could not bear the pain. It was my way of running.

Today I woke up and saw my hidden agenda of running away. Like the divorce 18 yrs ago, I managed to get myself together. Today I know life without Theo is not the same, a part of me died. But his spirit lives within my heart. As these planets are in retrograde, I take the time to take care of myself. My desires in life shifted into being more meaningful. I used to work for my success. Insatiable desires to fulfill a need. But now I became a servant, to support others in their success. I lost the desires to be, I just became happy. With my son’s lost, he gave me a true meaning of what to let go of and what is important? I work for love, unity and light. Together we can be in this sacred space when we lose our ego. We just be children of the Light.

Blessings,

Teza